Right now I don’t feel strong. I feel like I’m hanging on by a thread and its on the verge of snapping. If it does, absolutely everything I’m struggling to keep afloat will come tumbling down. My work, school, possible graduation, family life, all of it. It’s hard enough to keep things running smoothly on a normal day so add my mother being gravely ill in the hospital and it just seems impossible. I know God did not bring me this far to let me fail. He knows our life story from beginning to end. Now I’m questioning grad school when just a week ago I was excited and optimistic about it. That is why it is absolutely vital that I stop and listen to God’s voice and direction. Lord, I can’t afford to go in a direction you haven’t ordained! He is essential to the success of this journey called life.
I’m constantly hearing His voice saying “Keep your eyes on me” just like when He called Peter out of the boat during the storm. The minute Peter focused on the storm around him, he began to sink. Failure is not an option! I have to block out the storm and stay focused on Christ. It’s the only way we will make it out on the other side and into our promise land.
I don’t know why God allows us to suffer or to watch our loved ones suffer, but I do know that he will carry us through it if we allow Him to. He will be our strength when we are weak. It’s our only hope.